I feel lonely when I play a singleplayer game & I feel crowded (and in turn, lonely) when I play a team-based game. I need all of your attention. If you stop focusing on me I will simply destroy you.
Dual Games
If you asked me what my favorite kind of videogame is, I would tell you that it’s a Dual Game, and if you asked me “What’s a dual game?”, I would tell you that it’s like chess or tic-tac-toe: a game in which you compete with a single other individual. I absolutely adore Dual Games. I do not believe that this type of game is particularly better than any other kind of game, I have an admittedly extremely difficult time enjoying most games that fall entirely outside of this format. I find arena shooters, some roguelikes, and mechanics-light explorative games to be fun, I am less picky with boardgames (though, those are generally social experiences), but it is extremely rare that any singleplayer or team-based experience seem worth my time.
Waking up to life again, I find little interest in all that aside from the pursuit of beauty. To create beauty, to appreciate beauty, to laugh or cry from the beauty, to vomit. I enjoy creating beautiful media, and most of my friends seem to as well. I like talking about creating it with them. Here, you may find just that.
Hello! Yesterday I had the lovely opportunity to see some wonderful films at an event organized by the lovely Jonni Peppers. I took notes as I watched, and I’d like to share some of them with you. I’ve also provided you with links to where you can find most of the films online. In cases where I couldn’t find the film or it was inaccessible, i used either a trailer for the film or a different work by the same director.
i thought about how there are a couple songs i like whose names and central themes are saturday. after looking into it, apparently there’s a playlist’s worth of songs i love that follow this recipe.
patricia taxxon’s lazy saturday sun chill vapor loop from patty, kinda wishin it was longer to compensate for how much of the song is a fade in but its still comfy while it lasts
I have sought the words, and I cannot manage to put it better than Terence McKenna.
Culture is not your friend. It insults you. It disempowers you. It uses and abuses you. None of us are well treated by culture.
Culture seems to me a set of boxes (read:categories) with unique and overlapping attributes to each box. There are rules, and moving too quickly from one to another is often frowned upon. There is great beauty contained within these boxes, and each relationship between one box and another is truly unique. As one who inhabits say the cultures of disability and queerness, I’ll say I find the relationship between them to be so beautifully painful and astoundingly inspiring. There are many people who believe I am a very confused person, who ought to be something else, and that I’m quite malicious for such clear reasons as my craven desires and difficulty of expression.
It was May 17th of this year that I found myself in a very strange position: participating as a vendor at a yard-sale that I was not invited to. Days earlier I passed a sign indicating an upcoming yardsale, and on this sign it seemed to invite participants. Allow me to check if I saved a photo for reference.
In this article I would like to share my aspirations for the year (and beyond).
Publish Media Creation for Dogs 001
If you’re new to my blog, you may not know what MC4D is. Media Creation for Dogs is a zine I began in 2023. It is a small representative of the digital underground. Content is gathered by friends, fellow artists, all of whom that I met online with the exception of my brother (who somehow fits right in).
a simple but effective methodology developed by marshall rosenberg which when implemented increases our ability to connect with each other, talk about difficult subjects, resolve conflicts amicably, and avoid painful misunderstandings.
to begin with i will share with you the new and improved cover:
alright. in this session me and my friend will complete chapter 1. are you afraid of what will happen? i was too busy writing things down to feel fear.
July 14th ‘25
Preparing to dive into that dark world once more. –
Upon setting out with the intention of writing on my experiences as a slutty faggot
I predicted this to be a very difficult post for me to write, for shame, for fear, but I also predicted that it would be an incredibly easy post to write, for familiarity.
I am a transgender woman. As far as transgender women go, I believe that I move through life in ways that are more aligned with gay men than most. I came out in high school and felt as though no one believed me. I still often feel as though no one believes me. when I have intimate physical relations with another man, I feel an incredibly rare feeling and deeply beautiful: effortless womanhood.
I visited my now-wife in New Zealand. Before this, I had not spent nearly so much time existing in social settings since high school, if even. I felt hugely uplifted when given the opportunity to spend time with others, yet embittered for how I was treated, being the peculiar thing that I am. Several months after my return, September 5th, 2023, I wrote a small collection of prose about my experiences as a schizo, to honor that artist who has inspired me the most, Devi McCallion. This work is going to be published as a spoken word piece within my upcoming album, Still Lurking Creepy. But, before that comes out, I’d now like to share some considerations on what I wrote with you. I will now present it to you, and following that will be some thoughts on it.
howdy, readers. today’s the march 30th post for 2025. are you excited?
so, if you havent noticed, this blog is looking very different! i used a static site generator called zoner. i love zoner and i am going to be looking into more static website generators for more advanced purposes
i kind of hate working in html like it feels like you’re not supposed to work inside of html …
hello! i have two presets to share with you today.
Reverb Gate Setter is a very simple gated reverb that i am frankly astounded at how much mileage i’ve gotten out of it. and its interface looks like a face.
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Split Spacial Folder is a multiFX that uses the frequency splitter to allow you to put separate effects on separate frequency bands. it has numerous gainstaging controls, which i find to be deeply important for the thing that it is
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What are you doing right now? What have you done over the past few hours? Has it been enjoyable? How long will you continue to do it? Chase the experiences you wish to find yourself surrounded by, we find ourselves at home in that which we surrender ourselves to…
What do you want out of the internet? I dont care about these bitches posting dumb jokes I care about life updates and drawings I guess… I dont need to know about every thing that happens in my circles. I want a beautiful browsing experience………….
yreah okay basically im like … it’s been real fun to set up a lil muzo jams and ive been having a lot of fun with it this is from a few days ago, then there was another, then i made a thirty minute one :O with some various relevant information from a textbook thrown in for good measure
despite its resemblance being purely aesthetic… There is an implied sacrosanct of the song
yesterday I was deeply moved by Bach’s Fugue in D for organ…this is organ midi inspired liturgical is a result of that. My problem: I wanted to make a compelling piece that focused on the organ… I started with 1 organ playing “2 hands” (I used the mouse, as I usually do to arrange) until 2 hands on 1 organ wasn’t sufficient–a second organ.
don’t worry about that it’s still binnie we binnie all day.
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Our latest obsession has manifested itself as a series of attempts of advancement on our abilities as a power user of the www… Website development and RSS feed aggregation have suddenly found themselves intertwined in a result that has prompted me to private nearly all posts on this blog in an attempt to make a nice little embedded widget . I wish to share this blog on my website and make it more friendly to feed readers, by creating posts more akin to articles, albeit you’re still getting that dipshit schiz bitch bloggirl at the end of the day.
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The following piece of writing is not mine own, though I found it beautiful enough that I wished to house it within my blog. Sourced from denpa-chan, an anonymous text board.
If you’ve ever felt the UI watching you breathe, you are root enough.