ive not read much this time honestly. been busy with age of empires because i actually signed up to a community tournament and ive been practisinc because i love competetive games. and ptcgl lol... burning out on uma tho. i love brian and biwa forever incest style. got new gaymes to fuck with. but capital G gaming in general honestly kinda boring me. i can indulge a bit but i dont get as much out of it as others seem to. i rather create. i just wanna visual novel more. and not just read. but tom ake. ive bee having a burnout prevention break as you do.
theres been a lot of jams. i hope people arent burning out. theres always more. if you see a jam you dont need to take part if you dont havet he energy. there will always be more and thats awesome. anyway. check out
ill be honest. i feel a bit sad that worms is an april fools type project. something about it just rubs me in the wrong way. like is it really too corpo to not know you can just make a vn without it being an april fools thing?? especialy because. the vn itself. its good. its simple and straightforward and good... i liked it. and even more i liked the blog post about it. shoutout to sukeban games. valhalla was one of the earliest vns i played and probably contributed to why im writing all thin vn shit in the first place.
still. read the blog post. its heartfealt an true. i agree with basically everything said there. looking forward to the future where we can get devs like this hopping on toxic yuri train.
i read 95 theses and i appreciated and connected with it. im not white. i live in this world i have to navigate race on top of gender every day of my life. i found myself nodding at everything and also just on a technical level the videotome presentation was peak. the followind devlog lore drop that it was apparently about my game jam did make things complicated. shame to hear someone felt excluded, but im not too sure what to do about it. if you, the dev, happen to read this. know that i care for you.
looks like im being a bit negative. my mood is down today. ill just say that wibbles always cheer me up. i love visual novels forever.
i am also watching fate strange fake. ep 13 has been my fav so far
thats all folks. hop on the game jam. keyboard maid out.
░▒▓ site updates yeeee ▓▒░
anyway theres been updates to my site like i moved over my itchio play these games rec list to my site as well. click some buttons. go look at stuff. adventure. have fun.
been meaning to do it for a while and now i did. kateys strawberry starter is really useful for streamlining blogging so i went for it. this is my first post in markdown and i hope everything doest blow up. its exciting
░▒▓ media blast ▓▒░
while i was in the uk i read a ton of vns. its like awesome to see people hosting their jams. i like to think i am an important part of this lineage of people getting inspired by others creativity and celebrate it by making their own jams to get more devs on board with their niche interests.
jams like Robotic Romance Jam, EroHorror VN Jam 2025, Ryona Yuri VN Jam 2026 have had so many awesome entries. and seeing people from previous jams collab and make stuff together is so awesome. im always so interested in seeing what kinds of projects people end up making.
also i reread my favorite book. i dont really read books much but this one i have for some reason and its really sweet. thats it pretty much. i could barely remember anything from it since i first read it maybe 10 years ago and figured i just liked it cause it was one of the first books i read but even now i found myself immersed and got emotional about it. daddy issues be like Among Other Things, I've Taken Up Smoking by Aoibheann Sweeney
░▒▓ daydrinking ▓▒░
visiting uk was great. me and harley got to get a shoutout from devi mid show and i got to complete my list of enjoying armpit water, having a cigarette and all that. i also learned uk is insane and they sell strawberry unicorn fart flavoured vapes everywhere like candy in the same store they sell fake labubus. it was great but coming back to finland our vapes are boring and more expensive in comparison. shame but i get it . i rather make it like that and stop teens from getting into nicotine lol.
anyway. shoutout to harley making me drinks in the morning and as a thank you for being such a host ill gladly help co host the Daydrinking Jam and help judge the entries after harley decided to host one in one of its manic moods. i look forward to seeing what everyone puts out. its starting NOW. (tomorrom but still)
hyped to drink armpit water again
2026年02月08日
been having fun playing with my website
ive claened some shit up and made some shit load nicer and smoother. i spent days on optimization and you probably wont even know what changed and thats awesome tbh
ive also updated my vn guide because i really think people should make visual novels so i added further information to help anyone about to set on the equally sisyphean and glorious task of being a vn dev
check it out. even if you've read it before just give it a new read. the thing about guides and learning and all that shit is reading useful thing again is actually pretty good to remind you of your goals and intents. hopefully it can respark motivation in anyone feeling in a rut too.
check it out!!
[ click here for nadia nova how to make da vn guide ]
irl shit
ive been piss chilling. both hands style. one hand on the piss and the other hand on the chill. ive been feeling kinda insane for a while (as always) but my moods have been on an upswing recently.
playing aoe2 with friends has been novel. ireally never play video games. i just dont really get anything out of them and its also pretty demanding on my hands that are already slime feet style. but playing a pretty competetive game with a group of friends is really interesting to be on call and shit talk eachother while getting owned and doing ridiculous strats. having better days is good timing too since im planning to travel and i really dont wanna have an autistic burnout at the airport like i did when i visited UK year ago!
top 5 things in no particular order im excited about for my trip
- free shitty airplane beer
- tummy punching harley
- seeing devi live
- drinking armpit water again
- i just wanna smoke a damn cigarette
im taking the unique opportunity from the devi UK tour to see her live since im never touching US soil in my life cause i dont really want to leave to my home country anyway in the first place. its kinda insane that i even managed to visit UK last year. but just like that time im gonna be so hyped to see lil sis harley again and tummy punch it. seeing and hanging out with harley was so great im glad i can do it again.
statistically speaking this time i won't have to run through an airport barf girl style cause my flight was delayed and they won't lose my luggage that has to be sent to me separately way after i landed and security guards won't yell at me and trains wont be delayed. it was fucking terrible last time i travelled. god. at least the free shitty airplane beer hit real good. only time ive ever enjoyed beer has been on the airplane which is funny since notoriously you cant taste shit properly when in the sky
but if theres one thing about flying. i felt something special during my first liftoff before i had had any airport problems. i was really scared of flying for the first time and i had a plushie with me clipped to my autism sunflower lanyard. i was hugging it and shaking and my noise cancelling headphones were playing tim hecker - the ravedeath 1972 and the plane lift off at just the right time on my favorite part of the track and it felt like the whole universe aligned and there was something so unique and magical about it. im not sure if ive experienced anything like that ever or will.
side note i used to listen to this with my beloved noise cancelling headphones every night i go to sleep for like over a year in a row but recetnly ive been falling asleep to aoe2 videos lmaoo
i used to think i was afraid of flying but after everything going wrong at the airport on my connecting flight in every way possible by the time once i managed to sit down on the plane i was so mentally and physically exhausted desperately trying not to throw up as i was shaking at that point i was actually rooting for the plane to crash and burn
not afraid of flying anymore just afraid of airports now. i still think people shouldn't be allowed to be that high odf the ground ita just fundamentally incompatible with our nature
looking out the window and seeing the scale of everything just fucks with me my agoraphobia had never been that strong in ages took me like a year to recover. i thought going outside would like have the sky crush me. theres just too many things the world is too big theres too much its just not right
still i think it'll be a lot easier this time since i know what to expect. ultimately rn im looking forward to the trip and its convenient in a way to stop my contstant need to be productive and be forced to tell myself to rest and do nothing and just chill and do nothing and dont stress about shit just prepare and pack and wait until its the day of travel
thats it. jjk is good. even jjk modulo is really fun. read kagurabachi too. bye.
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aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sobusy!!busy busy BUSY!! BUSY!!!!!!!everything is happening so much!!!!! aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
okay im normal now. ive been hosting game jams for a while now. toxic yuri vn jam ended up being kinda BIG huh. over 200 entries. like even before we got to the gotta play all the entries part, this thing was a lotta work! moderating a server isnt easy. as much as a hands free approach feels like it should be fine, its a lot of effort to actually keep a community's vibes in align with your own values. its something ive picked up along the years from the numerous jam and dev discords ive hosted. some of which remain as inactive servers at the bottom of my discord list. jam graveyard.
i think the main thing that i immediately told teh other judges (and anyone else who wants to moderate a space) is that this is a vibes based economy. you can kick and ban anyone for any reason ever. stuff like that is just the way to go imo. you win some you lose some. in teh judge chat we had plenty awkward "ugh i dont wanan deal with this awkward situation" type call where technically nobody was doing anything wrong or bad or evil but the vibes were just not good. and for the betterment of the community someone needed a kick. its not fun when that type of stuff happens but it is what it is. sorry to everyone affected and hopefully nobody even noticed this happening. that would be the ideal moderation experience.
if something came up instead of putting them on the spot in the server and since not everyone has dms open we put them in time out in the scary gif room btw. which is. a yes. scary gif room. its a timeout room where you are locked out of every other channel from the server exept the scary gif room. only the grinched and the mods could talk in there. that was really funny. the record for most grinched goes to isahime. isa get grinched again lmaoooo you dork lmao. im grinching you as we speak. lmao. get grinched.
please go play Of Piers & Bays its amazing. a personal standout.
update:
still tho the server was incredibly fun and productive and fruitful. i loved seeing the encouragement. i loved seeing the progress shared. i loved seeing others helping others with issues. i loved seeing familiar faces from previous game jams and otherwise devs i consider peers even if we dont personally talk. its awesome to see people doing the type of shit you can relate to. im glad. its also a nice feeling to know that this is something that will keep happening in the future too.
a lot of people were posting some very heartfelt messages regarding teh fact that we have been upfront about closing down the discord server since moderating it is a pain in the ass. its reasonable people dont want the fun thing to stop and end and be over. but same way how people ask for sequels for a game that by no means should ever get one, i know better that what theyre after is just something else. not a continuation of a server that will die out over time anyway
which is why seeing people host their own servers and game jams to follow in the footsteps is exactly what i want to see. good job everyone. thats how i felt when i was enjoying my time with vncup community in second life conejo and enjoyed the time, but over time things shifted and the place died down (at least in the times i was able to be there due to my timezone) and i had to start doing other stuff. and in this case i knew i could put together a game jam and a community of amazing artists again and toxic yuri jam was about as amazing as it could have been. good job everyone
(i got no colours on my itchio dash cause i set my itch cut to 0% long before it was cool)
i love the joined to entries ratio. while its interesting to see these things grow over time, but specifically i love the dedication of how many people actually were able to put something out for this jam in particular. i trust and believe a lot of these people are some who played my games and have been convinced to try their hand at making their own visual novels by my prolonged years long mind control attempts. good job!
making a vn is so fukken doable! your biggest problem is just getting started! slay these grand ideas of what a video game or a visual novel should be and make something small and complete it! then you can scale up with more experience if you like! most important thing is to try and aim with the goal of being able to hit release on that thing you do. being an artist isnt about being good at something, its about being brave enough to try and get experience while doing it. sharing what you made is only a part of it all.
ending the jam with a bang:
goddd. when the idea of making a vn about the judge selects came up i was like no!!! im done!!! no more!! i want to get off this wild ride!!! but once thursday spearheaded the movement i did my best to help as much as i could from the background lmao.
open this thing in a new tab now! please watch it in full, its awesome. its informative about our judging process and why we picked what we did. also its just a fun vn at the same time. me and jill supported it, adjusting stuff while thursday was asleep. it was fun passing the project around like a blunt even if the deadline approaching in couple days kept me rather stressed lollll
some scattered thoughts about 'Toxic Yuri':
toxic yuri was actually a theme i already suggested for menhera jam so kyou being so awesome and being ready to sponsor it a year later was the best thing ever.
we hand picked some Certified Sickos and we all had our own vague idea of what toxic yuri meant to us. like we all knew that just because a story has violence or kink doest automatically make it toxic. we arent payment processers lol. its more about the layer beneath. aiming the spotlight at all the psychosexual trauma and emotional hangups that happen in and around this space is the interesting aspect. societal effects on the psyche of those of the marginalized identity and how it can manifest. and ultimately, how the genre to us and many more is a place to play with these taboo themes
this is a really good post. a lot of the dev but also the judging feelings mirror mine. highly recommend reading this. and the damn game if you already haven't. we weren't joking when we said we could have nominated the three judge games since they were all such toxic yuri bangers
mass itcho queer bundles are a big thing. to get visibility on the games but also to support the devs who make them. its important and hard work, but most also quite chaotic to arrange them. thats why the idea of "we should do our own" should be popping up in every doujin group.
we were just about to make our own That's VN Club! itchio bundle with the goal of makign some money for our friends who needed it the most. half of us had opted out of payments while hoping our combined clout would help get money and eyes on our friends. ...and then itchio sex games got nuked literally one day before our intended release date for the bundle. it was all a bit too well timed, unfortunately.
it was pretty funny in a tragic way. i feel proud to see the resilience of everyone. making their neocities and sharing links and torrents to jam entries when it all went down. its juts proof to me that things like these that we love will never die. keep being a sicko forever.
you should play through all those games. these are my friends and my peers i have all met through our love for the medium. its friends like these ive made by making games, joining jams and daring to dm people as an awkward introvert.
for a long time i was so fucking annoyed and stressed with how patreon originally was intending to remove the ability for the "per-project" payment plan which i quite love. i have little interest in charging people every month as much as i consider this thing a big ass tip jar. i just feel like especially those who live in america, your money is so much more valuable to you than it is to me. im not well off, i struggle with money, but im safe and secure. im privileged. i know that i live in a country with free healthcare and social systems set up that let me live despite my long list of mental and physical disabilities.
all the income from hopeless junction goes to my american girlfriends rent. all the patreon(adn itchio) money i get goes to food and necessities and sometimes a plushie. i know how to live frugal and feel like i dont need much more than a roof over my head and im grateful for that
with my itchio donation income going all the way down to a permanent zero, for the first time in years my savings have been in double digits. now that patreon went back on the promise to delete the per-project plan and lets me keep things as they are i do think i will use it every now and then for things that arent full game releases because patreon isnt going to remain and be reliable forever either
when itchio was suspending my games many quickly asked how can they now give me money. im incredibly grateful for that, and tried my best to find a way to say to give it to someone else. i can manage, and that means you should only be giving me money if you really think you dont need it more than i do. or alternatively, give it to some other queer dev who needs it more than i do. that will make me happy. i want to see the community help each other and as things are right now, even with my savings account empty, it never means i need to worry about becoming homeless
hopeless junction remake and future:
well the stuff said before this was the important part really. like idk ye my game is out. please play it. my gf needs the rent money and loves me more with every purchase. she has been my editor ever since doomsday dreamgirl, editing my english-second-language mess and teaching me grammar all the while. you have no idea the scrambled up nonsense she has to deal with sometimes lol. or maybe you do. given that i dont pass through text like this through her edits, i cant tell lmao. still its so important work that she does by polishing my rough diamonds
if anyone makes fanart please show me on bsky or email or whatever. if you still dont have the game by now, patrons can dm me for a steam key. especially with steam and its stupid region blocking shit
ive spent long remaking this vn and im proud of it. im never ever making a remake again tho. fucking hell. like its a different thing to make a story as opposed to polish one. making stuff is way more fun. polishing gets tedious fast lmao.
im excited to move onto new projects once i heal from this post moderation/dev/jam burnout. making art is so hard but so rewarding. i wish everyone could experience these same feelings i do. the more artists there are, the more joy and whimsy there is in the world
i have games planned out. ill host more jams in the future. ill keep doing stuff no matter what the world and the internet tries to change in to. ill be there. somewhere. youll find me. im more worried for the people who struggle to be seen
but we will remain. enjoy the things you enjoy and be loud about it. everything is fleeting and that makes it beautiful. everything disappears eventually just like the sun. but still its there, wanted it or not.
thanks for reading
(art by sloppy thank you forever)
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bad news is no itch io release. kinda out of my control esp with multiple of my games already banned and only available on my personal site. [http://nadianova.fi] btw. go follow my rss feed.) this makes sharing the game to people who have previously given me money kinda fucking hard and i really would like to find a balance of still doing this within reason.
so. the best solution i could come up with that won't drive me crazy is to make you subscribe to my per-game patreon. and FEW DAYS BEFORE i release the game ill make a patron post about letting people dm me and ill share keys one by one in dms eteheteheyeh. the main caveat here is that steam key requests have to be manually approved by steam before i get them, so there is a chance i might run out and then you gotta wait while i request more keys. there might be delays if you go the patreon route. this isnt some early access thing, the keys will only let you play on the standard release day so if you wanna avoid the hassle just grab it on steam yourself lol
i would appreciate if the people who joined would patron 10 dollars since the game will be 11 on steam, but esp if you've given me money on itch before any amount is fine.
alright buddy you have two options here. you can steam or you can patreon. those are your two choices. choose wisely. whats it gonna be, huh? huh?
- saint: simply buy the game on steam when it comes out (easiest for all of us)
- grinch: subscribe to my patreon now, and wait for me to charge FEW DAYS before the game release and then you comment on that post saying you want the steam key and i dm you the key (me trying to honour fans because i love and cherish everyone who likes my gay shit)
gaynadianova@gmail.com
heres my email address, now: send me one billion questions about these two choices. if i dont respond, the answer is either "just wait", "i dont know" or "i got too many emails and got overwhelmed" thank you very muchy
illegal
2025年07月25日
bla bla bla toxic yuri tjam 200 entries waaow also itchio banned all porn game lolllll.llolol......looooooooooooool.
anywtay, i updated my games tab, in the meanwhile send copies of my game to your grandma or something. i didnt expect to get this many emails i did today. too many questions. just do whatever you want wiith them idgafffffffff
heres the site for deaddeaddeath and her games wishbleed and heatwave
heres a torrent magnet link to the whole toxic yuri jam:
magnet:?xt=urn:btih:19694ace55a6e29479baa130690070acbdecc508&dn=jam&tr=udp%3a%2f%2ftracker.opentrackr.org%3a1337%2fannounce
ILLEGAL GAMES BANNED ON ITCH DOT IO
じゃまたね („• ᴗ •„)
uaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gamejam
2025年05月31日
i drew. theres a couple more over there at 2025 yaaay. honestly im glad for the firts ficking time ever i remembered the national holiday メイドの日 was coming up and drew amanda from naomida doing it maid style!!
TYPE-MAID
btw remember that mysterious TYPE-MAID i was real down bad for? well it was me! i was simply pretending to not be them! haha mischief and mayhem! i love to see it! A FIB. and it apparently worked for a lot of people lol. pretty entertaining. i did enjoi getting to talk about the game in ad ifferent way i feel like people would talk to me about a game they know is mine
making this project was really fun and considering i did it in literally a week i found it really refreshing for my brain to remind myself i can do shit after slogging with hopere for forever.
even though i used tony takas awesome assets i did still spend a considerable time making my own edits and adjustments to them. like the most obvious being i painted over the pixelation of the pussy and then drew my own cock on top and then pixelated that. lol.
also shoutout to that one cg where i edited clothes on her. yueath. thats the way to do it. real perverts make it hornier by adding clothes. you can thank me later.
i cant embed the video so TURNS OUT YOU CAN CONVERT MP4 FILES TO WEBP. WEBP WINS AGAIN. i still love avif tho. (side note that was also a thing. i was testing out filetypes and i saved all my assets into .avif and its incredible how small the filesize can get compared to regular ass .png)
so ye go play it. im really proud of it (also im serious about being down bad for TYPE-MAID, i would fuck myself. i can not be trusted in the presence of nadia nova)
ntoxic yuri jammmmy
ye like idk obv im gonna say something about the jam. uhhhh. its starting literally tomorrow. were gonna share the SECRET HIDDEN THEME TEEHEE and then everyone can get to work. im very excited. ive been super happy seeing the energy and people being proactive in appreaching renpy and daring to make a game already just as a test! im so proud of you
at the time of writign this 464 people have joined wow and if i were to directly go by the ratio of joined to entries of menhera jam 1/5 of them would drop a game. we judges are gonna be drowning in the goodshit if we really get 100 entries lmao
its okay we are powerful.
extremely looking forward to seeing all the progress in the discord and also getting to help people. i will be making my own vn this time as well. ima gonna im smaller scope wise and ill have my partner draw the assets so will see if im gonna have a second dddeviance on my hands or something lol.
its gonna be about a lobotomised murderpuppy killing millionaire CEOs for mommy 💉🤕😈💔
also while its visual novel season i realised i wanna make my 'tutorials' even more prominent on my front page since i find them very important for people to read, maybe juts to see my mentality and perhaps take some advice with you. i mean everything i say is always 100% correct so in my opinion these things should be followed like a bible
and with bgs mentioned i wanna share that some banging cool devs, DOGGIEWOGGIEZ, Lunaticker, deaddeaddeath have shared a fat stack of free to use photos for everyone te freely use! this shits awesome keep up the good work
ゲイ無関係: maid girl penis spank style
2025年04月30日
i drew
vn
ive been starving, STARVING do you understand?? been yearning for tgirl maid yuri vns in this world just to run into this and be proven that instead of having to do things myself its good to simply wait and let someone else do it for you
god. that name is just something else what was the author on? estrogen LOL?
just some brilliant stuff going down in this vn i made this graph to illustrate what its all about
while trying so hard to support this masterpiece i noticed that the rating option is missing. it seems like if a game is submitted to a ranked game jam with voting even the normal rating option is just missing entirely?? but its not that you cant give a rating the button is juts gone lmaoe. so basically what im saying is that heres the direct link to give this 5/5 game some really yummy stars it helps the author a lot!
gonna be parasocial for a bit but i hope i find out who the mysterious TYPE-MAID is as it would be cool to talk as clearly we have same interests also i bet shes very sexy and pretty and her tits are shaped really cute and also shes very smart and talented. TYPE-MAID if youre reading this right now, please DM me we can wear maid outfits together and do some banger second life maid erp together. please
have i ran this bit to the ground yet?
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i want to kill everybody in the world
2025年04月16日
skrillex sounds starts playing loudly baamb bwaamb bowm tstchbakakom etc etc
i drew that fuckingn thinginstead of killing people in real life. stupud puppy
honestly the world is too complicated and i dont mean like the news and shit thats too but like theres too many things. the view out of the plane window is going to haunt me forever. legitimately traumatized by the scale of everything. too much information. eugh.
ive been overwhelmed by the scale of EVERYTHING recently so ive stopped answering to dms, logged off and unfollowed everyon., id like it if someone put me in a cage and spanked me every time i dont eat 3 meals a day. that would fix me
ill do some random non vn art and work less on my games for selfcare until toxic yuri jam starts
vn
im halfway through the final heavens feel route on fate. fate is really good. unlike umineko. i think umineko is bad visual novel. anyone getting to the end of umineko and calling it peak should consider reading up on this. sorry my therapist told me to stop talking about umineko.
uh so fate is really good even if the sex scenes are a meme. its kinda sad, especially since in the last route they are actually entwined into the story due to sexual trauma and a family abuse plotline--instead mana transfer just being a "you cant lave this room before you have sex" tier plot device.
its a shame that a lot of people must only know about fan translated sex scenes of fate and base their idea of all eroges to be liket his. weh. it is what it is. ill keep making eroges. dick out and proud.
sakura and rider are so good
manga
iv been enjoying reading imitation crystals works today. spectral wizard touched me deeply. and salad wizard was the same. cried a bit. but what was the most special tom e was end of goldfish kingdom captured somethin beautiful. a childs view of the world can be so pure but when you cant just put things nicely into boxes some kids just take it harder than others. thats scary. and the theme happens to fit with my dread. meat is gross to me and it makes me think about my mortality. the crunch of chopping a slab of meat makes me remember im just the same thing. i dont like that. i would be a vegan if i wastn allergic to literally every plant ever and i wasnt alreadys truggling to eat in the first place..
also hi meri. ty for the scanlation. im a bit intimidated by the writing style but ill try to finish reading the rest on my own since thats what i studied for. . .
evil toxic yuri vn jam 😈💔
2025年04月08日
we are so fucking blessed kyou has sponsored a new game jam with a legendary prize pool and i am in charge of being a discord admin mommy needs her discord kittens NOW. toxic yuri jam is going to be starting in a couple months but its already been nice(and overwhelming) to see the server immediately popping off.
while i was at it i slightly updated my vn guide its still a mess but its my mess and i think its a bet better now. ymmv
now just play with renpy to practice but everyone pls wait until the jam starts until you start working on your entries tho. pls
in other news i was stuck in file optimization mines after curiosity got the best of me and i was wondering just how small could you make a renpy game into. so fuck webp all my homies hate webp avif is my new best friend. AVIF IS THE NEW* KING 90% less filesize buy 2 get 3 for free idk.
*it was invented the same day i discovered it, do not look that up
its just good to know of the options and its gonna be nicer for all of you when i compress the shit out of my images in the future vns
also i still like webp a lot its great
this shits on steam bla bla bla you get the drill. i also updated malmaid to remove the auto pauses cause i dont like em anymore
now tho instead of those stupid train fags here is 4 extremely good video games you should play immediately
SLIME FEET ON STEAM fr fr this time
2025年03月15日
my god bpd sucks i feel like shit lmaoooooooooo
idk ive just been drawing hopere art and working on that as muchk as i can with my shitty hands. its coming along. its nice to see it coming together. its rewarding.
i got shadow banned on tumblr!!! i flew too close to the sun!! i got my degrees of lewdity porn flagged many times even tho i cropped them lmaooo. maybe tumblr also didnt like me promoting slime feet so much i made a really good shitpost edit that had liek 5 links in it so perchance i got placed n the evil spammer box! who knows. i dont. dont think i can even ask support to unshadowban me cause then they will look at my account full of tranny horny posting and go like jesus christ get full banned. light banned. in broad day light. idk
btw heres the same video again. i should change the title to play now instead of wishlish lmao. lazy. i cant even post links on youtube either. everyone loves banning me. fuck the internet
slime feet is on steam now. it reached 760 wishlists which is wow!! malmaid got 1100 iirc. that was even more wow to me!! slime feet had some extra time since it took some back and forth and funniest reason is that steam reviewers struggled to play throud my book-type game and were requesting save files to access something in my linear story. idk. maybe they have some quota to fill for the day and really hate reading. i have no idea how they deal with actually more complicated games.
ANYWAY. its out now. i really really really appreciate the amount of reviews and comments i got for malmaid and im hoping to see people say things and have opinions for slime feet too on steam.share it with your friends and family(incest)
cuppy dog cuppy dog
i made store assets for hopere and submit that to steam hopefully they just say yea sure whatever and accept it cause i was just writing nonsense and memes in. lets cross our fingers and steam doest get mad at me for writing this in lmao
im still wontdering what kind of coloring i wanna do but im happy how things are proceeding. ive dediced to be lax and loose with the art like i did with malmaid. leave some cgs as flats and go hard on the special ones etc. will see how my hands agree
also i totally did not have a huge meltdown since blender 4.2+ has fucking ruined EEVEE rendering??? like i was hyped to do background stuff and now its just laggy ass hell forces me to enable shit like raytracing to even see a lamp and makes me render an image separately to actually even see what my scene will look like cause the viewport view is no longer showing the end result. cool. cool.. to me the whole point of EEVEE was to avoind these annoyng waiting forever to have cycles render while burning your gpu fans. ugh. i dont like it when things change and i always feel hesitant updating any software but this ones just a joke. fuck you blender. whatevel still im gonna be making my backgrounds in blender.
SLIME FEET ON STEAM & keyboard stuff
2025年02月26日
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yeah honestly my brainbox has been kinda garbo for a while. bpd is insane. youll have a full productive day working on projects and giggling and chatting on call with your friends about pervert tgirl fetish shit like in that that fucking plato and aristotle pic and the moment i hit disconnect i fele so lonely i wanna rip my heart out. i have plushies. so so so many plushies. i love my plushies. they love me back.
ive been really busy cause keeping myself busy helps my brain feel good. slime feet is on steam now. at least the store profile was approved and were still working on the builds as i need katie to help me through the non-windows stuff and build distributians and achievements and......theres a lot that goes into making a game, alright? renpy is good. everyone should remember how good renpy is and not take it for granted. and thank katie for being amazing to help me out like things
slime feet is a very personal game to me. idk if its weird to like point that out given that all my games are, but this one is even more. so i hope more people get to see it and connect. so if you cried or came because of slime feet that means those fluids belong to me and you need to do what i want and a i want you to wishlish slime feet on steam and share it with your friends and family(incest)
keyybeoaaarad
first pic was my qwerty writing 3 months ago and the second is me writing dvorak style today. this is a huge update. like there is no rush. my accuracy is low cause im hitting the wrong keys. keys i dont need to hit. and then i have to go back and fix. my wpm used to be like 100+ before my hand issues started and i never slowed down. bad combination to have. this was a huge motivation to learn touch typing at the same time as i did dvorak to get rid of these bad habits and learn writing from scratch.
on keybdr which is the site i used to train ive gotten up to 80 wpm when writing simpler words. its neat. i swapped full time couple months ago and i feel like im already at a writing speed comparable to my old one. fuck qwerty. and even if i am writing slower, in a way its just better for my hands since i write slower and calmer and have less typos
touch typing is so good. like. its just so much more comfortable. instead of using few of my finger and moving my hands around a lot, now i rest my hands in place on the homerow and touch type which reduces strain since all my fingers are used
originally when i saw this i was just stunned. qwerty relaly is just fucking random. dvorak is DESIGNED for touch typing and all the most frequent letters are played in the homerow and in easy to press locations. i have also bought pink linear switches which means it takes less force for a key to activate so i can press gentler
sorry i dont have a hd clean blender render quality type keyboard pic like everyone seems to have on r slash mechanichalkeyboards. im a girl
outside of seeking out quiet switches because im autistic about sounds of even my own keyboard, the biggest change here is that my left thumb has enter and my right thumb have backspace (and index finger delete). like what the fuck default layout had me constantly rearching my fucking pinky for backspace constantly is INSANE?? no wonder my hands hurt ugh (thats the location of my capslock key rn btw.) i also moved shift to the caps lock buttons location since that's a more comfortable and bigger key to press. the angled alice layout is comfy too
I've shuffled some special characters around since the standard nordic layout looks very different than US ones so i was already learning even the special characters, so i decided to relocate everything based on how often i actually use them
the biggest issue with adopting dvorak is that all the software keyboard shortcuts are designed for qwerty. like hitting ctrl+c and ctrl+v is in insane locations right now for me. but i made a keyboard layer modifier so i can hit a key and temporarily rearrange my keyboard back to qwerty so i can just use muscle memory to hit copy and paste etc.
i also have macros like if i press alt+< it will print out <> and move my cursor inside the brackets to make coding easier. this works for all ""(){}[]. but also stuff like if i hit the macro key (the one beneath my left shift) macro+c prints out nvl clear or macro+x splits a renpy dialogue in half
even if dvorak is designed for english writing, i occassionally, fortunately rarely, have to write finnish. ä and ö. i think it was a cute idea to add the faint umlauts like i did for the keycaps.. heh
basically I've made a handful of small but helpful changes for myself that all contribute to leads strain on my hands which is not only useful but also fun to tinker with. my keyboard is cute. and its mine. mine mine mine mine
hopeless junction remake
hopere is going fine. im basically done with sorting out all the writing. i wrote couple additional scenes. made the ero ones hornier. smoothing out soem edges in the writing. i try to avoid biting my own ass and being consumed by THE OUROSBOROS OF PERFECTIONISM. anyway, now i just gotta finish up the art. and then clean up the ui. and then do all the other fuccken things you need to complete a game. if theres one thing ive learned is that remaking games is insane. in the time it has taken me to remake this i couldve made 3 new ones.. its juts so differenth "fixing" stuff than "creating" and i rather do the latter.
i have my next game imperfect preparation, malmaid prequel already fully planned out. looking forward to start that.
anyway,
hopere is going to be amazing. i feel really good abaout it. and i got time.
me. life has been hard and exhausting and i feel like im in constant autistm burnout and my brain is being fried socially. working on vn hopefully can work as an outlet bmaye. be nice to me. i learned to dvorak and touchtyping to remove 20 years of bad habits of muscle memories. im having a hyperfixatuion on custom keyboards so ive been having fun with my keychron q8 alice style and customizing my layout to make a personal one just for me. im dhyped to order custom keycaps once i figure out where i want my keys . ive even been looking at glove80 and zsa moonlander. partly cause it might help but obviously also because i qjust think ithey look cool t b h. idk if dvorak or alice or touch typing will help my ergonomic issues and hand pains, my fingers are exthremely clumsy and even now i find myself making so many typos. maybel it will get better with time as my writing speed is steadily increasing. i dont really care how fast i write but it would be ideal i could do so with minimal pain and phsical exhaustion
also i cancelled my neocities sub so now slime feet doesnt have sounds anymore so its better to play it on itch io but im leaving the game up here anyway
auauaua website overhaul
2025年02月02日
so basically i rehauled my silly lil site with a blog template. its really cool you can do things now. i even set up an rss feed. ive also just in general spent couple days cleaning up my site directory since it was a total mess with everything just thrown in the root folder. you should see my desk. thats how i live.
ive always been thinking about how annoying it is that my OPTIMAL eurepean ddmmyyyy is too confusing with your insane mmddyyyy type shit. like for example 04.02.2025 is going to be read entirely differently by me and basically all of you. i dont want to write the silly american format so im going for the japanese yyyymmdd. kanji and all because i can.
i made this for myself and i will be collecting frens stickers on my links page
after reading maid in japan and being absolutely stunlocked by how good it was (i still want to write a little article to summarise my thoughts but thats effort)I ended up starting Ai ♂ Mai ♀ Misuto and it reminded me of how i used to binge gender bender manga in my teens... thank you ranma½ i owe you my life. stil i had been taking somewhat of a break with my japanese studies so those two relit my motivation and ive gotten back to immersion. reading manga and vns still gets a bit heavy for my hand even with my trackball mouse since i have to move the cursor a lot for the vocab tooltip lookups.
99% of the mornings i wake up feeling like i fell down the stairs in my sleep so after i take my adhd meds and tramadol and it takes like a hour for me to feel normal(ish) so ive been watching these 50 min episodes of mischievous kiss: love in tokyo and its been a nice watch. this girl is the dumbest girl alive and this 200iq boy is such an inconsiderade clutz. its great
thats that i suppose. ive been working on hopere while thinking about impepre and naomida. i think after i figure out the ui i will start working on the steam page. まあ、とにかく、ラナちゃんの絵だよ。
weeeeeeeee im making hopeless junction remake. hopere as i like to call it. im going to redraw all the art idk how much i will color em up but at least some cgs i want to put in a lot of detail like my more involved art ive posted at the end of last year. im going to be chill with it and go vibes based and not bother trying to make everything match like i did with malmaid and that was great. yea i guess malmaid is the level of polish im aiming for. the story is staying the same however ive rewritten a lot of the scenes to flow better or otherwise add in some stuff in between i skipped on when i made this original game in hecking 16 days. lol. i was possessed.
thank you so much vn cup i am permanently so grateful i was so inspired to start blasting out vns like i have
and yes there will be chandra cuppy dog plushie humping epilogue. of course there will be
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dunnu last couple months really drained me mentally. ive had like no spoons and also like just socially burnt out. ive been ignoring a lot of people recently and i try my best to not feel bad about it. it is what it is. the twitter Pumpkin Fucker arc did not help and neither did the increase of asks and stuff which were fun mostly but a lot of people also said a lot of things that i didntt like. like one comment is whatever you dont even realise htere was anything to feel upset about but when its a ton of comments like that suddenly it realyl fucking overwhelming. anyway.but i think im only now finally getting my brain back on like literally took the years first shower this week good job me. im sttill putting off laundry but like we have no clean towels so i guess ill do it today..........
anyway i got a bridge piercing after dreaming about it for literally years??? i just like. once a piercer told me my bridge doent have the right room and he wouldnt risk piercing it given this one already is notorious for growing out on its on. but also idk i suck at showering and eating and i know healing piercings needs exrta effort and also need to eat for nutrients to heal and i dont wanna fuck it up. so what im saying is that i am proudly going to de better as being human and eatt and shower more. wild i know.
honestly its wild to think about it tho iven like my wow rp main from like 2020 and ffxiv main from like idk 2022 and now recently liliana malcatras with this same damn piercinc cause i like it so much so ye fuck it. stabbed. normally i am on the verge of panic attack even when im getting my blood drawn but when i got the piercing despite it hurting considerabli more i didnt mind it. i guess its really just that i hate the idea of a needle inside my vein. gross. plus thats my fucking blood. dont steal my blood christ. MINE
anyway heres some commissions of my dolls i got Back In The Day
there you go. i will not provide additional context about my erp prowess.
i ordered custom keycaps as i finally settled on a layout that fits me. enter and backspace for thumbs is insane upgrade. my pinky thanks me eveny day. even moving the left shift to the location of the almost useless caps lock has been so nice. my handds have been hurting less recently. even if im holding off from drawwing since last couple days from pretty severe wrist pain i do think dvorak, touch typing, gentler switches and the alice layout has helped. im feeling positive.
just allllll off 2024
2024年12月09日
LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fucking FUNKOPOP fucked up itch.io????
born at teh wrong time to miss out on medieval flail battle, born in the right time to see this shit happen.. just yesterday i was saving my favorotie tumblr asks becaue i feel like its just a matter of time before they ban me as yet another transgay horny poster. its important to sae your shit etc etc. nothing is guaranteed not even your hard drive. so have two at least. anyway i am your mom but htas not hte point here,y despite me being a whiny baby that i never figured ou how to do a exe build of my html game now the stars are shining bright for me and i can just upload slime feet on neocities directly to play. so. without further ado. with furder ado. slime feet slime time click the image below to play
game will stay up for a month at least. will see then. anyway have fun
2024年12月01日
wahts up gamers whats upppppppppp ive een busy liek real busy not only have i released TWO games ive also been balls deep in -scecret vn- and imperfect preparation which will be a malmaid AND naomida prequel. ive also had unreasonably intense unstable depressive episodes but thas just business as usual
so like fuckken look at thes. i made PP:Pathetic Predator with isa she wrote the csript and i did the art and scripting and THIS PISSBABY IS SO USELESS GOD LOOK AT THAT BABY SPIDER. GET HER ASS
theres another game slime feet thats something i started couple years back and finally had the confidence to compelte. kind of a story about me and my shitty hands adn chronic pain and long distance relationship and love and sex and lvoe and feet and feet and slime feet. yeah slime feet. god. slime feet...
yea thats pretty much it i guess i bought a new keyboard an am becoming a mechanical keyboard nerd in my endless search for ergonomics to protect my slime hands. and alosi started practicing to write with dvorak because FUCK qwerty holy shit hta stuff is so unoptimal god. anyway its kinda fun just that my hands need a lot of rest so maybe a slwo process but it will pay off in teh end (assuming i get there)
anyway. coolio. cheers. puppy sign out
2024年09月17日
menhera jam judging is complete!!! it took so long.. i tried to track the active gametime and ended up at around 20 hours and then god knows how many hours of active discord participation in teh judge chat discussing the entries. our judge chat was more active than the server itself with us live posting our gamethroughs and discussing them ahaha
hosting this jam ended up being a lot more work than any previous ones! but at the same time it ended up being so fun to go through everything and getting to nerd about visual novels with the judges. getting to talk about vns is so great. thank you all for partaking and be proud of yourself for making a game. it ended up being a huge challenge to pick 5 since there were just so many good ones
there was one standout personal favorite. one that REALLY touched me deeply was The Great I Am. i really relaly, really, encourage you to play this one too!
ALSO PLAY MY TRANCESTUAL ANGEL EROGE ENTRY. it was pretty hectic making this especially during the final hours when i had been helping others with renpy problems the entire jam lmao... deadlines+adhd medication make me go ultra instinct i guess
2024年09月08日
im still hosting menhera jam were playing through all the almost 50 entries so we can pick our judge favorites. go play them too its hard to pick 5 when so many of them are so good
2024年08月03日
i put together a big visual novel, very proud of this one. pathetic soggy wet puppy girl maid loves mommy too bad. its on steam so like go cum and cry and leave a review
im taking the unique opportunity from the devi UK tour to see her live since im never touching US soil in my life cause i dont really want to leave to my home country anyway in the first place. its kinda insane that i even managed to visit UK last year. but just like that time im gonna be so hyped to see lil sis harley again and tummy punch it. seeing and hanging out with harley was so great im glad i can do it again.
thats it. jjk is good. even jjk modulo is really fun. read kagurabachi too. bye.
じゃまたね („• ᴗ •„) 
vn
ive been starving, STARVING do you understand?? been yearning for tgirl maid yuri vns in this world just to run into this and be proven that instead of having to do things myself its good to simply wait and let someone else do it for you
hopere is going fine. im basically done with sorting out all the writing. i wrote couple additional scenes. made the ero ones hornier. smoothing out soem edges in the writing. i try to avoid biting my own ass and being consumed by THE OUROSBOROS OF PERFECTIONISM. anyway, now i just gotta finish up the art. and then clean up the ui. and then do all the other fuccken things you need to complete a game. if theres one thing ive learned is that remaking games is insane. in the time it has taken me to remake this i couldve made 3 new ones.. its juts so differenth "fixing" stuff than "creating" and i rather do the latter.
i made this for myself and i will be collecting frens stickers on my 
