GeistHaus
log in · sign up

https://jaimiekrycho.com/feed

rss
46 posts
Polling state
Status active
Last polled May 19, 2026 05:34 UTC
Next poll May 20, 2026 06:15 UTC
Poll interval 86400s
ETag W/"a8f7-LovrB+SfN66aDtgZtwQqBlU6Ryc"

Posts

To be liked or disliked - a metrical field in which nothing grows

Analytics are a tricky thing. They tempt you to believe that your work - whether writing, comedic videos, visual art... - has a quantifiable value, measured in "views" or "likes and dislikes" or "follows." The iterations of these measurements are endless, and all egocentric.

Show full content
To be liked or disliked - a metrical field in which nothing grows

Analytics are a tricky thing. They tempt you to believe that your work - whether writing, comedic videos, visual art... - has a quantifiable value, measured in "views" or "likes and dislikes" or "follows." The iterations of these measurements are endless, and all egocentric.

I derive the most joy from art (of any kind) when I put it out into the world for the sheer joy of having created something, and the desire for others to participate in that joy. If people don't find joy in what I've made, then the creation simply wasn't for them; and, their disinterest in my creation does not diminish its intrinsic value.

It's easy for me to say, now, that if people had never posthumously discovered the works of Van Gogh, it would not have made his irrepressible gift less worthwhile.

To be liked or disliked - a metrical field in which nothing grows
Vincent van Gogh's Sunflowers | Image from Brittanica.com

I could not have said that to the man's face when he lived. His experience of life and art was sad, raw, and real.

I suppose I'm trying to express that an experience can be real AND untrue at the same time...not unlike an impressionistic painting, or a great work of fiction.

There are metrics for value and goodness that we, in limited humanity, will never get to see nor be able to accurately describe.

What is True cannot be touched by the withering fingers of opinion, repulsion, or even attraction. Truth does not need buttressing.

Truth doesn't need us, but we need it. This is (obviously) not compatible with an egocentric view of value, which is why it is a sorrowful labor to look for affirmation in analytics.

I am ever striving to find joyful labor in joyful fields. I hope to find us there together, dear Reader, no matter how long it takes for us to get there.

To be liked or disliked - a metrical field in which nothing grows
Photo by Hannah Busing | Creative commons copyright via Unsplash

6a0b0c103aeb7800016ea0c0
Extensions
Harry Potter Ink Daydreaming

SPOILER ALERT for those who know nothing about the series, particularly books 6 and 7

As a mother myself, I resonated with Narcissa's desperation in this scene, and it was all the better for knowing what kind of person Snape would prove himself to be by the end
Show full content
Harry Potter Ink Daydreaming

SPOILER ALERT for those who know nothing about the series, particularly books 6 and 7

Harry Potter Ink Daydreaming
As a mother myself, I resonated with Narcissa's desperation in this scene, and it was all the better for knowing what kind of person Snape would prove himself to be by the end of the series. An extremely compelling moment.
Harry Potter Ink Daydreaming
I loved the mental image of the bright blue eye appearing in the mirror shard...and then, DOBBY! The juxtaposition was both humorous and poignant (Rowling excels at doing this throughout the series, of course).
69d3ee1e8e731d0001000501
Extensions
Untitled poem

A mist lies low in the valley of my chest:

A flimsy veil o'er pain – dark grey monolith

That cannot be moved. The shifting of plates

Leaves its mark on the earth.

It cannot be reversed.

But I still know this land. The shifting of plates

Does

Show full content

A mist lies low in the valley of my chest:

A flimsy veil o'er pain – dark grey monolith

That cannot be moved. The shifting of plates

Leaves its mark on the earth.

It cannot be reversed.

But I still know this land. The shifting of plates

Does not touch sun or star – nor every sign-post tree,

And mist baffles sight alone; vision is another thing entirely.

69319b232e18700001a57da1
Extensions
An open letter to a person I hate(d)
open letterhateforgiveness
I felt hate for you, and now all I feel is tired.
Show full content
An open letter to a person I hate(d)

I can’t open this properly. I have no sarcasm or spit left to spend on you and the things you’ve done.

I felt hate for you, and now all I feel is tired.

I declared hate for you, but I’m not certain that we have that much time in our short human lives to waste on hating someone who made their human choices and reaped their human consequences.

The space you occupied in my emotions got so sick that it forcibly expelled you.

And now that I write this, I feel pity for everyone (including me) who fell for your deceitful ways, but especially those who were younger, and more timid, and less brain-developed, and had a much better excuse for naiveté than the rest of us.

I pray that their choices in the aftermath are ones that lead to healing, ones that are good. “What man meant for evil, God intended for good.”

Your fallibility is nothing if not under the sovereign countenance of a Good and Immutable God.

May the Lord have mercy on your soul, that you repent and find Him before you meet the end of your own short days, as shall we all.

Jaimie Krycho

68b755017c5d260001dbf406
Extensions
Episode 2

chapter 2 the foil

The days passed with the monotonous, but pleasant, hum of repetitious manual labor, with products to show for it. Jilyan began to suspect that during her cushiony childhood, she had missed out. When she caught her reflection in the mirror pane in the anteroom of the

Show full content

chapter 2 the foil

The days passed with the monotonous, but pleasant, hum of repetitious manual labor, with products to show for it. Jilyan began to suspect that during her cushiony childhood, she had missed out. When she caught her reflection in the mirror pane in the anteroom of the shop, she noted a vivacity in her eyes, like a single white spark, that she had often seen in her peers of humbler estate growing up. It was as if they had known a secret power of great value, without knowing that they possessed it and therefore carrying it aloft with a confidence that Jilyan had not, at the time, understood.

She and Eckthellie quickly became tepid acquaintances, then polite colleagues, and were more slowly approaching what might be called a sort of truce; perhaps even a friendship. Jilyan was a quick study and understood finery, so her natural eye added to the already avant-garde designs Eckthellie created in her fashionable hats. When the weather was pleasant, traffic from neighboring villages and the occasional trader from cities further out trickled steadily in and out of the shop, always leaving with more than was their stated intention to buy. More than once, Jilyan’s youthful grin and infectious energy caught the attention of a visiting man, but when he tried to look her full in the face, she would quickly duck away, begging pardon for some errand she suddenly remembered she must see to. It wasn’t something she was happy of — indeed, many of the men had seemed respectable, even well-bred — and Jilyan longed for a brave hero to rescue her from her estate just as keenly now as she had when reading antiquated adventure books in her youth.

The man who did come crashing into her life was not at all the type that she expected. It was another gloom-ridden day, like to the one when she had first begged for employment. No one had yet come into the shop. It was still early, and Eckthellie had made a rare days-long journey to a southern city, so Jilyan sat alone in the anteroom. There was one small and worn, but elegantly carved, table, a stove and teapot, and two fine, painted porcelain teacups (though a bit chipped in spots) for both her and her employer. It was a good day to be alone - to think. She raised the cup to her lips, savored the cardamom’s aroma, and prepared to sip the hot beverage.

That was when said man came crashing through the back door.

If, dear reader, you have ever been startled by a very loud and inexplicable noise that vivisects the perfect silence like a blade, you will understand why Jilyan, at first, could make no noise, clutching at her heart as if willing it to stay in her body.

A moment later Jilyan screamed, but it was barely enough to penetrate the walls, given that the man clapped his hand over her mouth immediately. He scanned the room with keen, bright eyes, his breathing labored as if he had been running. Apparently, the solitude suited him well enough that he began to relax, finally loosening his grip over Jilyan’s mouth though still controlling her arms.

Jilyan bit at his hand, but he appeared to have expected that. He pulled it away deftly, chuckling quietly. “Alright, alright. I have no intention of hurting you. Simply, stay quiet until I’m able to move on well enough. I do have steel on me, and I do not fear using it. Yes,” here he exhaled long-sufferingly as if she had been arguing with him, “even on a girl, if I must.”

Jilyan examined her assailant sidelong as he let her arms free, and willed her hands to stop trembling. The man flipped a dagger in his hand to demonstrate the point he had last made. Jilyan’s eyes widened. Sensing her discomfort, he turned a playful smirk upon her, and noted her face for the first time.

“Not a girl,” she heard him mutter, a calculation. He suddenly resumed his suspicion of the surroundings. “Since when did this milliner hire apprentices? Especially slips she could knock out with a blow from her pinky finger.”

Jilyan spat out, “Whatever your intention, I take you for what you certainly are - a criminal.”

The man was already peering around the door to the main room, scouting for safety. Satisfied, he turned and addressed her. “Criminal is only a word for a person who refuses to kowtow to arbitrary rules created by his fellow humans. For example, I don’t want to lay a finger on you, nor anything in this shop, no matter what it’s worth, because I’m not here to commit wild, malicious, horrific acts. I only need to hide for a minute.”

He took a step toward her. Sensing it was a test, Jilyan stood firm and unmoving. It took all her courage. She was unused to tete-a-tete confrontation with any person, let alone someone who had threatened her.

Looking at Jilyan but seeming to speak to himself, the man muttered, “Not that I expect someone like you to think in anything but opposite extremes.”

She noted the hard jaw and the dark waves framing darker eyes, the muscles tense in his shoulders. If she had seen only these things, she might’ve cowered, but lying beneath it was an overwhelming sense of helplessness and exhaustion. “Who are you hiding from? And why?” Jilyan demanded.

“A constable to whom I owe money. As it turns out, half of the bribe I last paid to him was counterfeit coin.” He shrugged minutely. “I’ll leave you to decide whether or not I knew it was counterfeit before he did.” Receiving no response, he continued. “The man is insane. He’s at the bottle constantly, and when he’s not, he’s still mercurial and raving.”

“I know of whom you speak,” Jilyan replied. Indeed, Constable Ivers was a thorn in the flesh of anyone who had the misfortune to make his acquaintance. Of all her would-be suitors, he was the worst — by far the rudest and most untoward toady she could have imagined. “Perhaps you should’ve considered Ivers’s character before you put up security for him.”

“He was the only constable I deemed corrupt enough to take a bribe, so I actually had no choice,” the man piped up with an odd degree of cheer.

“Did you hurt someone?”

“No.”

“Why did you need the bribe?”

“To help get someone out of town and out of memory. Someone innocent.”

68a3aadf6b44ba0001f0f615
Extensions
[Title?], Work-in-Progress - Episode 1

Thank you for lighting the fire underneath me to get started, Kelsey. :)

prologue

He looked from over the edge of the railing, what he had once jokingly called “the Balustrade.” The wood beneath his hand was ragged. The ground on which his eyes fell was ragged. For a

Show full content

Thank you for lighting the fire underneath me to get started, Kelsey. :)

prologue

He looked from over the edge of the railing, what he had once jokingly called “the Balustrade.” The wood beneath his hand was ragged. The ground on which his eyes fell was ragged. For a moment - brief enough to settle solidly in his mind, and fleeting enough to echo afterwards in his memory as truth - he knew beyond doubt that this was not his home. He had time, if not money, to spend, and it would be a worthwhile pursuit to find out where, exactly, was “home.”

chapter one Once upon a time, desperate

Jilyan was once a lady. Her bearing still spoke of this. She was straight-backed, grave-faced, but gracious in her bearing. When she spoke to a person, she looked them in the eye, and her minute movements showed that she seriously reflected on what she was being told. On paper, her inheritance proved her rank as a woman of consequence. But everything else that once made her such was stripped away and consigned to shame, from whence nothing can be returned. This stripping is what one saw in the lines across her forehead and between her brows, her cheeks - slightly sunken beneath the rouge that attempted to mask it - and the dark under-eye circles that elaborated on her many nights of troubled sleep.

Jilyan was young, if not by your standards, reader, than by the standards of anyone who has lived long enough to detect ongoing distress in the telltale signs of a human face. She had celebrated her twentieth year only a handful of summers ago. This was a fact that at times she had taken pains to conceal, but on this particular day, it did not seem to matter. The clouds clung heavily, greedily to both the feet of the hills and the stink of the streets in Shavila that morning, and the air was near and warm and stifling, so that anyone who was out wore her linen hood close about her face in a feckless attempt to ward off the oppressive weather.

Today, Jilyan had more than the broad goal of finding employment both quickly and legally. Finding a way to gain both things at once was proving to be a confounded nuisance, if not, she was beginning to think, an impossibility by the Iron Laws of the universe.

Today, Jilyan's goal was to put herself at the mercy of one person rather than the whole city. Instead of passing by Eckthellie’s shop as she had done every day before, she checked herself, and veered through the doorway before her pride got the better of her. The fog trailed through behind her.

Eckthellie Tutt was a milliner, and her reputation as a true artisan of the trade seemed like the only thing that kept Shavila’s economy afloat. The woman was also, historically, Jilyan’s avowed enemy.

The sparkly chime of the bell was ill-fitting alongside the shadow on Eckthellie’s brow the moment she perceived just who had come into the shop.

“If you’re looking for a handout, Miss, I’m afraid that all my tolerance for such things has been spent,” the woman said drily, though her blue eyes were spitting behind the tasteful wisps of grey hair loose about her face.

“You mistake me, Madam. I’m here because I intend to avoid all handouts” – Jilyan swallowed, and managed – “at the expense of my pride.”

Eckthellie’s eyes widened minutely, though it could’ve a trick of the fog-addled light. The woman stopped adjusting the elaborate hats in her display window and unconsciously wiped her hands down the pleats of her skirt, a tell of discomfort Eckthellie had never been able to kick. It was possible the shopkeeper didn’t know that she did it, though Jilyan doubted that.

Jilyan, folding her hands to avoid betraying her nerves, continued. “The relationship between your family, Mrs. Tutt, and my own, has been…tenuous…for a long time. Seeing as I am the only one left of mine,” — she inhaled deeply; why did tears try to spring up at the most inconvenient times? — “I wondered if that enmity should really pass to me. I think it would be foolish to maintain a ruse of hatred, when there is nothing about you I’ve ever hated. Had I been born with a different surname, I think you and I might actually have gotten on very well.”

Eckthellie’s shoulders tensed, and Jilyan suspected she had pushed her luck too far. Well, it was an honest statement, and she could hardly berate herself for honesty, with no games of power or underhanded politics to play. Jilyan did respect, if not like, Eckthellie. The woman had grit. It was a virtue Jilyan only hoped she would possess on reaching the same wizened age.

The silence stretched to its breaking point. Fittingly, it snapped in Eckthellie’s curt reply.

“It’ll take you a fair lifetime to catch up on what you should already know about millinery, especially in my renowned shop. So,” she smacked her hands together peremptorily, making Jilyan start, “if you want to maintain your newfound employment here, I suggest you batten down the hatches and get to work.”

6876790a1a46d10001351e1b
Extensions
The view out my window this April morning
poetry

A momentary slice of sun

cleaves the shadows of a misty dawn --

Spotlit, splendid stands

a single home upon a gilded hill.

I envy her, although I cannot reason why,

And think she envies me the very spot from which I spy.

Show full content
The view out my window this April morning

A momentary slice of sun

cleaves the shadows of a misty dawn --

Spotlit, splendid stands

a single home upon a gilded hill.

I envy her, although I cannot reason why,

And think she envies me the very spot from which I spy.

6810cbacec8464000153e597
Extensions
what I made for Elayne
artembroideryTolkien
'In this phial,' she said, 'is caught the light of Eärendil's star...It will shine still brighter when night is about you. May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.

Galadriel, from The Lord of

Show full content
'In this phial,' she said, 'is caught the light of Eärendil's star...It will shine still brighter when night is about you. May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.

Galadriel, from The Lord of the Rings by JRR Tolkien

67bc9374b222b5000138232a
Extensions
Reflection on Loss

Grief and grief and grief are

strikes between which breath is impossible –

leaving first, a reeling mind half-alive

and second, dark, strange bruises.

The colours of these marks clear,

but move just so, and the pain underneath

reminds the body where it yet lives –

Wherefore, we plead peace

Show full content

Grief and grief and grief are

strikes between which breath is impossible –

leaving first, a reeling mind half-alive

and second, dark, strange bruises.

The colours of these marks clear,

but move just so, and the pain underneath

reminds the body where it yet lives –

Wherefore, we plead peace with passing twinge

Or else permit its torment full ag'in.

67bc8ea8b222b500013822e8
Extensions
a defensible argument
Sketchedartmartial artsbest black penfavorite ballpoint pen

favorite pen: Pilot Juice up 04 in black (0.4 mm)

This is supposed to be a girl doing a left-leg back kick on a wave master. My daughter thought it was a man with long hair. ->_<-
Show full content

favorite pen: Pilot Juice up 04 in black (0.4 mm)

This is supposed to be a girl doing a left-leg back kick on a wave master. My daughter thought it was a man with long hair. ->_<-
6791105b8d3b3b0001ce0527
Extensions
Farewell, my one knight
Uncategorized
Stay thee, man arrayed in armor fair;By thy honor, ‘fore thou goThis, my precious standard, bear:This, my passion and my woe. Pray thee, lover, soldier, friend;By our bond ‘neath the DivineTake my hand, and to it bendTo kiss; e’en so, my mouth is thine. Say thee nay to pitying eyes,Stay your strength, that I may…
Show full content

Stay thee, man arrayed in armor fair;
By thy honor, ‘fore thou go
This, my precious standard, bear:
This, my passion and my woe.

Pray thee, lover, soldier, friend;
By our bond ‘neath the Divine
Take my hand, and to it bend
To kiss; e’en so, my mouth is thine.

Say thee nay to pitying eyes,
Stay your strength, that I may do!
Let parting glance be sun-streaked skies,
Laughter old, and travels new!

For If my standard you do take,
It must needs soar atop your lance
With every confidence I spake
That naught to come is left to chance.

for my One Knight, in truth

Inspired by the painting Godspeed by Edmund Blair Leighton

6741f516f759500001442b40
Extensions
Why did I ever choose iMovie?
ActingNewsTechCasting directorsFilmmaker ProiMovieReelsWheel of TimeYouTube
I finally ditched iMovie for Filmmaker Pro (which has treated me very well, so far). Hasta la vista, babehhhh This means a few things, namely that 1. I will maintain a higher level of daily sanity, and 2. I really, truly need to update my acting/performance reel. Again. This takes more time than one might…
Show full content

I finally ditched iMovie for Filmmaker Pro (which has treated me very well, so far). Hasta la vista, babehhhh

This means a few things, namely that 1. I will maintain a higher level of daily sanity, and 2. I really, truly need to update my acting/performance reel. Again.

This takes more time than one might think. I often wish I could tell casting directors that if they check out my YouTube channel, they will get a hearty dose of my personality (since we all like to know about those with whom we will work closely), performance flexibility, and, if neither of those, a snort-laugh at some of the dorky content. All without getting blacklisted for being the worst role applicant imaginable, of course…

Oh. I suppose there is good voice acting from my readings of Wheel of Time excerpts.

6741f516f759500001442b3f
Extensions
A Last Days Moment
PoetrygriefReal life
I watch you, quiet, as a cacophony must be ringing in your ears only Your every cell wars. Every soldier is deployed at last, for the final, desperate charge. All I hear is machines ticking and clicking, A small “beep,” Your breathing, and the sounds of your pain as you fight for air. I take…
Show full content

I watch you, quiet, as a cacophony must be ringing in your ears only

Your every cell wars. Every soldier is deployed at last, for the final, desperate charge.

All I hear is machines ticking and clicking,

A small “beep,”

Your breathing, and the sounds of your pain as you fight for air.

I take your hand, quiet, and what I remember most is not the sound of your agony

But the paperthin feel of your skin as I rubbed my thumb across it,

Carefully avoiding the purple mountainous bruise that stains half its breadth,

And how I felt warmth, love, and I think you did, too,

Because

You fell asleep.

Written in grief May 31, 2023, 5 days after his passing

6741f516f759500001442b3e
Extensions
(Untitled)
Uncategorized
In reading a novel, any novel, we have to know perfectly well that the whole thing is nonsense, and then, while reading, believe every word of it. Finally, when we’re done with it, we may find—if it’s a good novel—that we’re a bit different from what we were before we read it, that we have…
Show full content
In reading a novel, any novel, we have to know perfectly well that the whole thing is nonsense, and then, while reading, believe every word of it. Finally, when we’re done with it, we may find—if it’s a good novel—that we’re a bit different from what we were before we read it, that we have been changed a little, as if by having met a new face, crossed a street we never crossed before. But it’s very hard to say just what we learned, how we were changed.

The artist deals with what cannot be said in words.

The artist whose medium is fiction does this in words. The novelist says in words what cannot be said in words.

Ursula K. Le Guin
6741f516f759500001442b3d
Extensions
A Real Query
SketchedUncategorizedWeird Stuff About Me
Codependence needs to be defined wisely in order for us to understand that humans were made to live in community. To quote an antiquated animated movie I still love: If you're gonna hunt humans, you might wanna remember that we travel in packs. From the film Titan A.E.
Show full content

Codependence needs to be defined wisely in order for us to understand that humans were made to live in community.

To quote an antiquated animated movie I still love:

If you're gonna hunt humans, you might wanna remember that we travel in packs.

From the film Titan A.E.
6741f516f759500001442b3c
Extensions
Is now, and shall [longer] be…
Philosophy of writing
Exist-pencil meanderings…
Show full content
Written in August 6, 2020

This blank page is my bane and my blessing.

I go away and then come back here, time and time again, abandoning the page like an unfaithful companion and returning like a besotted lover.

There is something that speaks freedom in the boundless opportunities of words not yet written. The unknown. And yet, I feel the crushing the weight of the unknown just as keenly as soon as I leave the page. Life is not a blank piece of paper. There, lives are written, people I love drawn with as much detail and tenderness as the finest sketch Michaelangelo ever penciled. Stories without an ending are there, the sublimity of their telling only increasing with the passage of time. But beyond that, who can say? The sketches, the stories, are not eternal, but everlasting. They have a starting point. And no mortal can see into the everlasting - in fact, sometimes we can’t see what’s right in front of us at any given moment.

As I read this Word this morning, what I want to see is before me and behind me. The faithfulness of God - now. The past stories of God’s “right hand” - yet, now. The comfort I seek is moment by moment as well as in precedent, I fear, for there is no panacea for the overarching pain of this ongoing trial, and certainly nothing to reach into the everlasting future and tell me exactly what’s going to happen. So, shall I content myself with the future as yet more blank pages?

Blank pages, perhaps, but stamped - help my unbelief! - with the invisible seal of the God both sovereign and benevolent. This I must believe, lest I give in to despair.

A new morning dawns. And anything, anything, could happen today. Already, the tears want to flow - Lord, how can I hope when each time I do, I am disappointed? - but the pages, I know, are already written in invisible ink…lemon juice lines that only the blacklight held in a child’s hand can see….and they are divinely composed. May I be childlike enough to hold up that blacklight with anticipation of adventure, of hope, and of good. If I lose those…no. Where else can I go, Lord? You have the words of eternal life.

6741f516f759500001442b3b
Extensions